Spiritual healing comes in many forms. One of the ones I developed was based in using the vibration of Love which in the spiritual dimensions is also Light/sound,  and has a very high vibration. Every thought and emotional that is not based in love, but based in fear or beliefs of separation from love has a slower/lower vibration. When we hold onto thoughts, beliefs and emotions from fearful experience they can eventually create physical pain in the body. The following true story shows how I began to open to these healing gifts and how they work to release all kinds of pain when a person is ready.  The second part is a commentary which explains things further. The third part gives you tools to use for your own exploration and growth. The forth part describes the different subtle senses or what people term psychic abilities, which is really perceptions on the subtle energy plains.

 

Eardrops of Light

It's over," the artist replied when I asked how it was going with her overly critical boyfriend. We began discussing the project I had given her when I developed a terrible pain in my right ear.

"I have to get off the phone," I interrupted. "My ear is really starting to hurt."

"Well that's funny," she responded, "because I was just at the doctor's for a serious condition I have in my right ear." She pronounced the long medical name for her condition and continued, "I think that's my earache you're feeling. I've had it for five weeks and the doctors have not been able to help me. Even with pain medication, I can't sleep."

"Okay," I said. If she wanted the earache to be hers, it was fine with me.

It was 1995 and I was going through many odd phenomena as a part of an inner spiritual initiation. Through this process, I was learning the causes of various forms of pain and suffering and also the basis of their healing. It wasn't a fun time, but very educational. The whole idea of feeling her earache in my body seemed odd, but not so strange in the context of everything else I was undergoing. The pain increased, so I centered my awareness and let myself experience it. An intense aching traveled through my ear, down my face and into my jaw. When I described what I was feeling, she became excited.

"That's it! That's it! It's exactly what I feel!" she exclaimed.

My analytical mind wanted to understand what was causing the pain. The intensity of it made me think the cause might be lodged deep in the inner ear and facial bones. I asked for guidance and sensed, 'No, it's not in bone.' I looked in the nerves. Again I sensed it wasn't in the nerves and heard, 'Yes, it's in the muscles.'

I told her I thought the pain was coming from her muscles, but by then, my ear, jaw and face were hurting so badly I lost my curiosity and just wanted to get off the phone and away from her.

Amazingly, I distinctly heard a voice tell me, 'Push light into it.' I was regularly practicing a form of Chi Gung where I focused energy and light, so I knew how to apply the concept of directing light. I began to push light into my ear and jaw. When I did, my pain vanished. I felt better and decided not to hang up so quickly.

Then she yelped, "My pain is gone! This is the first time in five weeks I've been without pain!"

I was as amazed as she was and suddenly saw scenes of a little girl in a pretty white dress being criticized and yelled at by her mother.

"Do you want to know what I am clairvoyantly seeing?" I asked.

"Yes!"

I described the scenes I was observing and told her I sensed her pain was related to these experiences. She remembered the exact dress and told me about the constant verbal abuse she had endured as a child.

Three days later she called to tell me she was still pain free. Two weeks later she phoned again, thanked me once more and told me if the pain hinted at returning, simply working on a creative project made the twinge disappear.

The Afternoon of the Phone Call

I had begun taking my clients for walks up a hill near my home office to a place in nature where we conducted our sessions in beautiful surroundings and total privacy. People liked having sessions in the beauty of the hills—it allowed us to talk as we walked and then do the deeper healing while lying or sitting on the mats I toted. Outside, my clients could feel their connection to the earth and sky, and it was also good for grounding, nurturing and a feeling of expansive freedom.

I started taking them to this hillside lookout for an additional reason. As I became more empathically sensitive, it was excruciating for me to sit in the confines of a room with people releasing their pain energy. In nature, I was able to stay grounded and the energy had space to dissipate. Working this way, I gained a deeper understanding of energy and eventually learned how to work with my consciousness and developing energy field. The earache experience was the first time I felt pain so strongly over the telephone.

That same afternoon I met with a new client. We walked up the hill to a shady spot where we could see all the way to the bay. As we walked, she began describing pain she was currently feeling in her ears that she believed was caused by a childhood operation. I wasn't completely surprised to see the same issue again; the healing of specific issues often clumps together in this way. As we discussed her pain more, I learned she was a musician suffering a blockage around musical expression and spontaneity. As a young girl, her music teachers were strict and controlling classical dictators who did not approve of spontaneous musical expression. When she was creative outside of their pedagogic style, they would criticize her and her musical improvisations. Once again, it was evident to me how criticism of self-expression could be connected to pain in the ears. When we got to our private spot we began to work on the issues utilizing several different healing modalities.

Mirror, Mirror

The next day as I was writing and working with my own self-expression, I developed ear sensations. I was writing about how my work as a therapist had the side benefit of helping me in my own healing/growth process, as the clients I attract often mirror something I also need to investigate in myself. While putting pen to paper, I struggled to find a way to accurately describe an esoteric concept. As I agonized over the words, my inner critic grew into a towering monster, ready to cut me down at every turn. My tension escalated. I became more insecure about being able to effectively convey what I wanted to communicate. As I became flooded with these feelings, the computer began acting up, freezing every few minutes. I felt completely frustrated in my efforts to express myself. The critic in my head said I was wrong to believe I could do it successfully; people would ridicule me, and my ideas, just as I was ridiculed as a child. When my interior battle reached its crescendo, my crown chakra shut down and my ears began to throb painfully. Obviously, I had my own unresolved issue.

I decided to take myself into the hills for some focused self-healing. I often work on myself the way I work with my clients. If something helps me, logic suggests it should work with other people, too and vice-versa. If I am aware and willing during these sessions, I will receive helpful information, guidance and often, will feel an energy flow or a shift in vibration through my energy body. However, I must first open myself and be willing to investigate the issues fully. I have to psychologically prepare for the experience and focus determination on my intention because, even though there is a feeling of guidance, there is also a part of me—my fear based ego—that wants to avoid looking at something that I may find unpleasant or something I have hidden from myself, as we all do. No one wants to feel pain, including me. However, I have witnessed and felt the great benefits of facing painful memories and releasing the stored emotional energy charge and old beliefs, so I know it is better to resolve and heal old issues that do not serve me, than to continue acting them out in some way or living with them festering. Besides, discovering truth in these personal investigations is part of my job, healing the wounded healer in me, so I can become whole.

Concentrating on the importance of my writing as an expression of creativity and new understandings of energy in healing, I realized my crown chakra had, once again, shut down and that pain was beginning to develop in my ears. It confirmed for me that I was dealing with the same kind of issues my clients experienced, although in a different way. After all, the crown chakra is where you connect to higher wisdom and inspiration and intuition.

How big a role was the inner critic playing in my life, in my body? I had suffered under some strict and some mean spirited music professors, too, not to mention my critical parents.

I went into a mild trance and began to work with scenes from my childhood. I saw myself at nine-years old sitting at my school desk with my hands folded. My classroom at this time had been located behind the school stage to accommodate the many fourth graders attending the old, dilapidated school that year. As I saw this, my head began hurting as well and I felt resistance to continuing. I began to remember how as a child I often had headaches—I had worked on that before. This memory kept me looking deeper. I knew my current pain was from old mental constructs around criticism and was probably also associated with ways of using or closing down my awareness. Often as a child, I knew things that others didn't want to acknowledge, and when I expressed them, I was criticized and belittled. I would then judge myself and close down. Self-judgment and criticism can choke inspiration and I've learned I need to be able to keep my awareness open when working on creative projects. I also open my awareness in this way during both marriage and family therapy and intuitive-energy healing work.

I began to investigate the vision of this moment in my childhood more aggressively. I liked my teacher that year, but by observing myself from the distance of adulthood, I easily recognized I was conditioned through repressive tactics to behave and shut down, to organize myself, and when to express or not express myself. Sitting at our desks with our hands folded and doing nothing during free time before the next lesson were the means necessary to receive points and good marks. I saw the underlying messages I received were: “Sit down. Shut up. Fold your Hands. Be quiet and still, and then you are good.' Also: 'Independent creative expression is wrong and you will be punished for doing something on your own.' As these messages became apparent to me, I felt the pain of them in my head. My teacher—even though well intended—had supplied more constrictive and repressive messages to the arsenal my inner critic had gathered from my nuclear family.

I embraced my child self, gave her permission to run freely and express herself and to be good in creative ways. As I did so, I saw light flow into and through my head and ears as I opened my crown chakra again.

 

Commentary

An Earful

The phone call from the artistic earache sufferer came while I was in an open state, having just finished meditating. I did not have any intention of participating in a healing when I picked up the phone, but my Higher Self had other plans for me. I originally hired the artist to help me design a brochure but had not heard back from her in over a month. At this time, my Higher Self was orchestrating the opening of various abilities and phenomena. I learned as I stumbled into them.

The voice I heard (clairaudient) telling me to push light in the pain I also call the Inner Teacher. Not a physical teacher but an instruction from a higher/faster vibratory dimension. We can all learn to sense our Inner Teacher and the information can arrive in many different ways. (See section below on types of subtle sense perceptions.) In this case, it offered me guidance as I was learning to use developing abilities and also for healing myself.

I was going through some of the healing forms I had developed and used in other lifetimes. .(I had my first reincarnational memory after I began meditating at Muktananda’s Ashram when I was 29. See “Reincarnation: To Be or Not to … ? ) As I developed an understanding of some of the potential and pitfalls of this kind of empathic healing, I was gaining a practical understanding of healing through vibrations. Additionally, I was learning how light/love essences are affected non-locally, working beyond the limits of space and time. I also was gaining insight into the relationship of psychology, energy and physical issues in healing verbal abuse and criticism that effect self-expression and inner guidance.

We Are One–Uniting Energy Fields

At the time of the healing, the artist and I had united our energy fields. We were operating beyond time and space, so distance wasn't a factor. I thought I was feeling the pain in my body, but being in an expanded state or in the place of Oneness, I was instead experiencing what it felt like inside her body. As a result, her pain ceased when I pushed light into what I thought was my ear and jaw. This demonstrates not only how distant empathic healing works, but how we are more connected to each other than we generally believe. Her pain surfaced after being with an overly critical boyfriend with whom she was experiencing stinging disapproval. Her situation demonstrates one way in which the wounds we experience in our early life are often triggered for healing by romantic relationships. The physical pain in the muscles was from the energy of fear—hers in reaction to the anger, criticism and disparagement that had been directed towards her.

Anger is fear's partner and carries a similar vibratory energy. When children are young, their energy field is not as solidified and their bodies can actually feel the vibrations of anger coming at them. Of course, this may depend on a given child's level of sensitivity. The human body likes the frequency of Love and will generally tighten to protect against what it feels is not love. When criticized as a child, her ear, face and jaw most probably tightened against the criticism. When she felt attacked again by her intimate partner, the muscle pattern of tightening returned. That pattern was also connected to whatever beliefs she had created at the time it was originally formed and by revisiting the original picture, she could choose to both release the pain and undo the reaction pattern. The light used in this healing was the energy of Love. Love vibrates at a higher frequency than fear and so could transmute the denser energy that was lodged in her muscles and then they could release it and relax.

My spirit was showing me how to understand and use new healing gifts that were getting activated at that time. I also learned on a visceral level how the power of consciousness is not restricted by time and space and can heal victimization abandonment and betrayal that stems from feeling separated from Love. Much of human suffering is the result of believing in the separation and feeling abandoned, trapped by time and believing we are limited to the small space of these quirky human bodies.

Even though I thought I was teaching her, she was also teaching me. She was showing me new abilities that were opening and also helping me understand the reflection of my own pain around creative self-expression.

 

 

Tools

 

Rewiring Your Mind

 

Part 1   Focuses on opening to greater self-expression or moving through any kind of creative block.

Part 2   Shows you ways to reclaim your power of choice and experience the flow of creativity in the present.

Part 1 - Sleuthing: Investigating the Roots of Any Creative Blockage

First, sit or lie down in a comfortable position, where you feel safe and relaxed and won't be disturbed.

Then:

• Focus your intention to use your power to create change.
• Explore your body for a physical sensation related to the blockage. If none are present, visualize a situation in which you felt blocked and be with the sensations.
• Pay attention to any memories that may float to the surface, which contain similar sensations to your current challenge.
• Observe the memories as if you are watching a movie and send compassionate love to your former self.
• Watch and/or listen to instructions that had hidden messages, your reaction to the messages and notice any physical reactions.
• Decide that the destructive or inhibiting messages you received no longer serve you.
• Be willing to let those restraints go along, with any fear and anger you may have felt or repressed.
• Visualize a form, such as: golden hands, a healing light, or spinning golden disks - it's up to you - choose any form you prefer. Imagine you are using these tools to gather all of the negative messages, emotional pain, judgments and beliefs.
• Pull the cosmic hands through your memory and your body, condensing the energy until you see a flattened disk or a ball.
• Imagine the hands removing the flattened disk or cluster of negative energy from your body.
• Imagine what you would look like with the free flow of your creative expression once this energy is out.
• Return to the present and see yourself without your creative blockage—what do you look like, and feel without it?
• Visualize yourself doing something you enjoy in your creative flow.
• Rinse and repeat each day for a week.

Extra tips:

• Pay attention to the memories that spontaneously arise. Sometimes there are multiple incidents and factors, sometimes there is just one, and it will contain the core issues that you are ready to see and transform.
• Write down the main ones, and as you write, don't edit or judge. If there is a lot of resistance to writing, express through another creative form such as dancing, sketching, music, etc. to express your feelings of the issues or the memory. Writing is helpful because you can go over it later and other things will occur to you.

These tools will be most effective if you use them in an ongoing fashion. Keeping a journal or notes or a sketchbook is also a way you can keep a record of your growth and discoveries.

If you're having trouble with the above, here are some questions to help you focus on what may have created a self-expression blockage:

• When you were growing up was there a fair amount of criticism, authoritarianism or repression in your home life, school or church?
• Did your parents or people around you fight or argue?
• Did you feel assaulted emotionally, physically or in other ways by someone's anger?
• Were there things it was hard or unpleasant to hear?
• Where you punished for making mistakes instead of receiving guidance to correct errors?
• Were you constantly corrected in some area?
• Did you get criticized when you said what you wanted?
• Was a parent an alcoholic or a rage-oholic?
• Did your parents or the adults you were around believe that children should be "seen and not heard?"
• Were you told everything was fine when you sensed it wasn't?
• Were you in an environment that did not allow open discussion or expression of your feelings? Were you told things such as "boys don't cry" or "if you don't stop crying I'll give you something to cry about?”

 

If the answer to any of these is yes, there may be held fear around self-expression.

 

Once you feel comfortable and complete with Part 1, it is time to create a reality that does not include the old blockages. However, if at some time a blockage does pop up you'll have confidence that you can move through it easily by returning to Part 1.

 

Part 2 - Creating a New Truth

 

Now, you are ready to shift your focus from what created the problem and the undoing of your original beliefs and subsequent reality construction, to the solution. Here you will form and select new beliefs that will empower your creativity and as a side benefit, your health.

 

• Relax. (You can use music to assist you; or see the CD or MP3 accompaniment for the book.)
• Feel yourself in the moment. Look around the room with your eyes open and feel yourself fully present, touch your hands, experience how the skin feels.
• Imagine the present as a connective funnel between the past and future, between earth and heaven, as the middle section of an hourglass allows the sand to pass between chambers.
• Connect with your creative power. Notice how you have created this moment. Know your power resides in the present.
• Set your intention with a thought, such as:

"I have the power to create my experience in the present."

"I own my power in the present to create."

"My power is in the present."

• Allow the thought to move into a feeling, or a sensation of that power. Feel it in your body, as well as a thought in your mind.
• Align your emotions and your thoughts with your intention to find any needed solutions. By doing this you are in the driver's seat. Further, believing you can do it creates the power to do it.
• Remind yourself that there is a part of you that has the answers you seek, and the power to create the changes you want.
• Locate a memory when you had the feeling and experience of being able to express yourself spontaneously, where people listened and there was a good feeling.
• If you can't remember ever having such an experience, revise one of the scenes you remembered in part one but imagining that it happened the way you wished it had occurred, or just invent a memory you would have liked to experience.
• Generate the emotions of the free expression scene and feel your joy and creative power. (Be aware of any conflicting beliefs).
• Use your imagination to try out different versions of the experience. Practice the ones that generate the most joy;
• Write down the new beliefs you want to energize and on a piece of paper also write the ones you no longer wish to use to construct your reality.
• Sometimes doing a ceremony and burning the paper with the old beliefs feels good and creates a sense of closure.

 

Extra Tips: Important

When undertaking these techniques, you may experience or notice critical thoughts running through your mind that may cause doubt or declare the process stupid. Just observe them but don't give them much energy. Those thoughts will give you a feeling that you don't have the power to create the changes you wish, so just know that there is a part of you that has resistance to owning your creative power and re-focus on the exercises. Later you will learn how to work with any parts of yourself that are scared of stepping into your power.

If something has a big charge, if you feel restless or don't want to continue, you may be experiencing some held emotion. If you are able, just stay present with it, this is easier when you have had experience doing this yourself or in meditation. If it is very scary it might be helpful to get assistance or professional help to move through and release the charge. If there was trauma, having professional help by someone trained in healing trauma, who can hold the space while you experience strong emotions, and who won't want to drug you, is a good idea.

A great deal of healing can happen more rapidly in altered states of awareness as different aspects of the self can communicate more easily and parts of the brain that don't generally operate in normal consciousness begin to come online with your intention and self empowerment. Altered states open up and energize parts of the brain and have been scientifically shown to be crucial in healing. Most people use less than 15% of their brain. Why not use more?

See the Inner Movie tracks

Subtle Senses (Psychic Awareness)

 

If you are interested in increasing your intuitive/psychic awareness, the first thing to do is to notice when you are getting subtle feelings, perceptions, and information. Since these impressions are more fleeting than regular physical sense perceptions, it generally requires a more focused attention and an increased sensitivity to them. Having the intention and desire to use these abilities helps them unfold. Once you've received subtle impressions, it is important to validate them by noticing if the information is accurate.

Each sense has a corresponding subtle sense that can be developed. Most people are inherently stronger in some areas; however, it can be useful to develop all of them.

Clairaudience is Subtle Hearing. It can be described as hearing a voice in your head, but it is different than psychosis, which is what people are often afraid of when they have the experience for the first time. It might sound similar to your own thinking voice, or it may sound very different, so it requires the ability to distinguish it from your thoughts. Sometimes it is so clearly outside the range of what you know that it is obviously a clairaudient experience. Clairaudience often comes in dreams and can be a voice-over type of experience. When that happens to me, it is often information from my Higher Self or my guides, giving me a bigger picture.

Clairvoyance is the subtle sense of seeing. It can vary from vague images to very clear ones and it can occur as you tune in to altered states like meditation or if you focus on something specific. Clairvoyance can give you messages in dreams by showing you future situations clearly, but it can also work with you through symbols. (When I saw the artist as a child in the white dress being yelled at, that was clairvoyance.)

Clairsentience is kinesthetic. It is related to empathy and empathic healing. The physical area it is related to is the lower belly. With this sense you actually use your body as a sensor that registers information. People with this ability can often feel what is happening in another person's body. They can know what other people are feeling even when those people are not aware of their own feelings. (When I felt her earache so intensely, that was clairsentience, but it can also register in a much milder way.)

Clairknosis (clairknowing) is related to the top of the head and the crown chakra. The information is just there. You don't even know how you know it, you just do. It is the fastest of all the intuitive ways of knowing. It is pure and it is clear. The difficulty with it can be that how you know is not logical and so you might ignore it or discount it or your rational mind can tell you there is no way you can know this information.

There is even a subtle sense for smell, which might alert you to something that is problematic, like a fire in another location that you would need to know about. Sometimes you can smell your own or another's essence, or mystical types of scents such as the scent of roses, often associated with living saints.

And, of course, the last and most important of the subtle senses is a sense of humor, which is located in the funny bone and helps make all kinds of experiences more fun.